Compartmentalize

by jordan collins

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released November 6, 2017

Produced by Matt Novesky at Orb Recording Studios

Track "Purify" features:
Matt Novesky (Blue October)
Joseph Milligan (Anberlin)
Butch Wade (Wonderbitch)

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Jordan Collins is an independent artist from Spokane, WA.

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Track Name: Compartmentalize
Calloused hips and dried out lips
From everyone that I faked love with
Empty heart but not empty compartments
As I compartmentalize

Last night I fell in love again
For the millionth time this year
Just another Monday
I want you to stay
I hate to be alone
I can't get any more honest than this

Breathe air in and breathe you out
Could I ever forgive myself
For the things I cannot seem to say aloud
Trigger pulled I hope your proud

That night I fell out of love again
For the first time you took it all
Just another memory
I wanted you to leave
You stole my innocence
Can't get any more honest
Than this

Maybe it was all my fault
Did I lead you on did I lead you there
Maybe these words are useless
Self worth has no grip on me
It just slips right through
These cracks that sever me
Maybe it was all my fault
Or did I carry the weight of your sin this far
Track Name: White Sands
White sands draw me in
Like a warm, warm bed
Comatose, give me rest
Give me rest
My lungs collect dust
From the things I'm not proud of
My throat is an open
Open grave

So I'll spit it out in hope
That you're proud
Fill me with holy water
This salty air I breathe
Lungs open heart is ready
I want to recover
And receive

Draw your plans before me
In the sands I'll be waiting
Awakened with fear
The roar of it all sits beside me

So I'll soak it in the end
I'm just dust
Fill me with holy water
Cleansed now you drown out my sin
I want to recover
Draw me in
Draw me in
Track Name: 26 Days
It's been 26 days
I can't escape
Your marble eyes, sweet face
It's been a blur
These days go by
I feel this emptiness
Always by my side

All this time I feel the sun
Where the Turia meets Mediterranean
Say you'll be there by the sea
I feel connected
Where the oceans meet

It's been 36 days
I can't escape
Your marble eyes, sweet face
I'm rendering these memories
Of cigarette lips, ripped up jeans
And that sweatshirt I never thought I'd keep
It's the first time I've been this honest
Honestly I want to keep you around

All this time, I feel the sun
Where the Turia meets Mediterranean
Say you'll be there, by the sea
I feel connected
Where the oceans meet
Track Name: Alone
I am alone again
The silence eats away my skin
When I am with him
I feel happier than I've ever been

Who am I to say your mine
You weren't even there that time
That I felt like I could die
Now my heart is on the line

My head is spinning
Can you stop this pain
This is me now
Am I different than you knew

Who am I to say your mine
You weren't even there that time
That I felt like I could die
Now my heart is on the line
You're the one I want for time
I told you that a million times
Now you're walking away I
Sit here and cry

Who am I now
Is it myself that I can't find
You know I miss you
Today more than yesterday

Who am I to say your mine
You weren't even there that time
That I felt like I could die
Now my heart is on the line
You're the one I want for time
I told you that a million times
Now you're walking away I
Sit here and cry
Track Name: Winter Air
Winter air
I want you to be healthy again
I want you to speak calmly

Lay my voice softly at your feet
You push it away kick dirt in my face
I'm cleansed
I'm cleansed

You're winter air in June
Freezing my lungs
Freezing my lungs
You're oxygen on the moon
There's never enough of you

You're winter air in June
Freezing my lungs
Freezing my lungs
You're oxygen on the moon
There's never enough of you
Track Name: Ghosts
This ghost in my bones only comes around
So often
When he does he brings a match
And gasoline
Your lips they were the alcohol
Ignite me
Strike a match on your mouth
Watch me burn

As far as I know these ashes last forever
I've spread the across so many
Oceans and seas
The tide always washes them back
The air tastes of poison
I swear I taste your cool breath in the breeze

Now I'm drunk on these words
Claiming change is easy
All it takes is an empty hand
And open mind
I know this type well you'll never be happy
Always reaching for something to clear
Your narrow mind

As far as I know these ashes last forever
I've spread the across so many
Oceans and seas
The tide always washes them back
The air tastes of poison
I swear I taste your cool breath in the breeze
Track Name: Summer Fever
With life like the summer
You wait and it's overrated
But you're like the summer fever
Burning a fire in my chest
Let's take this forrest fire
and set it ablaze in my bed
I miss the feel of feeling and
I've stopped calling sadness my friend

Once I slowed down this
Life stopped running and
Time is elusive now
That I quit counting and
I felt the chords of death as they
Wrapped around my body and
My heart was tied by my
Self destructive living

Keep dancing in your language when I'm
Still learning how to play dead
Be my logic when I'm
Swimming so deep in my head
These four padded walls have me
Wasted on shared oxygen

Once I slowed down this
Life stopped running and
Time is elusive now
That I quit counting and
I felt the chords of death as they
Wrapped around my body
My heart was tied by my
Self destructive tendencies
I'm on my way down from this
Mountain made for hiking and
The sun breathed new life
Unconsciousness is fading away
Fading away
Fade away
Track Name: Purify
All I am is where my soul resides
Purify my lips, sanctified
Replace this taste of emptiness
I've filled all my insides
I'll search my heart and be silent

If I'm being honest, I'd rather go my own way

The moon directs the tide
I feel the pull in my heart
But have I gone too far
I come back time and time again

All I am is where my soul resides
Purify my lips they taste like sweet wine

If I'm being honest, I'd rather go my own way
If I'm being honest, I destroy myself everyday

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